My Name

You Are Lively and Courageous

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Yes people. Read em' and weep. =)

My Blues

Oh sweet lord, is making me sick your way getting me in the mood for Christmas? Cause it ain't working, first food poisoning, then the world's worst head-splitting-feel-like-10 10 ton-elephants-sitting-on-my-head hangover headache I never thought was possible. Now a freaking viral infection. Gosh a sore throat, I can't even speak. Yeah huh, Me not being able to speak, I guess this is what it will be like when hell freezes over. =)

Man..being sick sure makes me moody and depressed. Its the middle of December now, holidays are gonna end soon and again I have that familiar I haven't accomplish anything feeling once more. I guess we all feel our life is gonna start or flourish at some point but we have to step out of our shells and our own restraints and insecurities in order to make that happen. Things don't just fall into place in life. If you feel something is meant to be, then you gotta fight for it and never an opportunity pass you by for some of them only come about once in a lifetime. I know this and I know the truth in this. But yet I still don't have the courage to take my first step. I know the time is now. The moment is now.

Neil Gaiman wrote:

Sleep my little babby-oh

Sleep until you waken

When you wake you'll see the world

If I'm not mistaken

Kiss a lover

Dance a measure

Find your name

And buried treasure

Face your life

Its pain, its pleasure

Leave no path untaken.

There is no secret to life. There is only one way. Live it. I know something is lacking and to find it, probably would be find what I've always been looking for.

My Cup of Coffee

Ben's lessons in life...

• Nobody wants to go into an elevator and be the one who sets of the beeper. You know, the one that tells you the elevator is too heavy or you're too fat. Either way. Because you see when you step into the elevator and the beeper goes off, there is somehow an added stillness and silence to the elevator. An awkward one. And for once, everybody in a place regardless of race, religion, belief or culture are thinking of the same thing and probably in unison too. They may be innocently staring at the elevator floor but you know they're thinking "Get out fat ass!". That why everytime i enter a crowded elevator, I pray.
• When you have food poisoning, never buy hot coffee from a vending machine because god knows how long that stuff has been in there.
• When you buy hot coffee, do keep in mind that the cup might actually be hot so you won't look like a fool in front of the people waiting in front of the elevator.
• When you get back in the elevator, remember that in hospitals there are two sets of buttons, one which is lower for people in wheelchairs so you would not have to bend down to look at the number on the buttons and then realise 10 seconds later that you look like a fool in front of the same people who were waiting in front of the elevator.
• Remember that you can't always look like an idiot, your life is not a comedy and you can't always be the punchline.

All that from getting a cup of coffee with cream. Amazing isn't it?

DB: With cream? Didn't you have a dream involving whipped cream last night? *chuckles* Haha it was..

Ben : Shaaad up!!

On a much lighter note, Whose Line Is It Anyway? is an awesome show. Its amazing the type impromptu crap they can come up with. Never seen a bad episode. Heres one I remember from the show.

"Going through puberty was a very difficult time for me, Cause it seems like everything around me excited me; So listen to me now cause this is not one of my rants, when you go through puberty do not wear sweat pants!" - Colin Mochrie

Guys will understand. =)

I also watched "Wanted". Awesome show. Ridiculous. But still awesome. How is it possible for you to bend a bullet! Woa..reminds me of my stupid nickname..Bend-your-dict=.= . Anyhuu, I wish I was meant for something bigger like in the movie, fulfill a destiny or what not. Life is so mundane, so uninteresting, so monotonous...damn!

Fantasizes..

In an old chinese temple in a land far far away...

Sifu: Are you ready young master Ben? Ready to fulfill the prophecy written in stone?

Ben : Yes master, I have never been more ready.

Sifu: Ready to fulfill your destiny as the world's biggest idiot?

Ben: What??!!

*Tyre screeches*

Hmmm...something went wrong in that fantasy.

Starts fantasizing again...

In a room full of immortals dressed smartly in tuxes...

Sifu: My son, are you the one?

Ben (excited): I could be the one.

Sifu: Yes you are. You are the most the insignificant a$$hole of the 21st century.

*Tyres screech again*

Damn... that line was from "Wanted".. aw man....

My Ice Cream Day

AB : Oh look who decided to blog again..
DB : After months of abandoning us...
AB : For god knows what reason...
DB : And now he shows up..
AB : Gay too! Just listen to the song he is listening to.

*Doktor Kosmos sings : Holiday! Holiday! Its the best day! An ice cream day! I am only happy when I have holi..holiday!

Ben : Oh sure this is gay! Not as gay as finishing each other's sentences..
AB & DB : What the hell! Whatever man.
Ben : Not as gay as saying the same thing together too for that matter!
AB & DB : What the..oh just shut up and blog!

Ah sweet sweet december! Ok that was a tad gay-ish sounding..*makes a mental note: damn it man..stop grappling with own sexuality =.=* Ah holidays away from the stress of school, its kinda nice to just stay at home and not worry about a single thing. Peachy actually!

DB : Peachy? Really dude? You have "peachy" sitting on the tip of your tongue?

Ok, fine, sweet.

AB : Oh sweet to replace peachy. Yeah thats much better.

Alright alright! It has been nice. Lets see highlights of this holidays.

• Went canoeing last week. It was kinda fun. Fun until an idiot..ok hold up lets take a second to define idiot shall we? Idiot : An individual who takes a single canoe even when he doesn't know how to paddle and paddles real quick to the middle of the sea to capsize or an individual who is terrified of ghost and decides to watch Mirrors. Alone. =.=. Anyhuu, I had to wait a full 5 minutes or so before someone saw me. And Lay Qi who saw me was nice enough to paddle up to me to "save" me by bumping her canoe against my bobbling head in the middle of the sea. Don't worry people! Ben will live! I am invincible and nothing can scare me..*cockroach runs past..Ben yelps and hops onto his chair*.
• Watched dvd at certain FT's house yesterday with Kok Oon and my sister, Alissa Lee Zheng Ying. XD. Disturbia was awesome and suspense-filled. And why oh why can't I ever get a hot neighbour. WHY???? Life is not fair. I wanna be Shia La-whatever, his last name is too complicated..guess if I had to go by pronounciation I would say Shia LaBoof. I mean come on, Megan Fox *takes a moment to daydream..weee...* and now this girl in Disturbia. Life is not fair!!

Anyway its the 3rd week now, gosh time flies!! I really wanna enjoy this holiday you know, make it memorable and worthwhile. But I just don't know how to get there.

My Christmas Moment

One fine day last week....


Ben sings : Deck the halls with smiling faces..tralalalalalalalala...

AB : Du-ude, its October.

Ben : Bringing joy to sadder places...tralalalalalalalala...

AB : Seriously man...you gotta..what the..

DB (wearing a santa hat)sings : Here comes Santa Clause...here comes santa clause..right down Santa Clause lane...Vixen and Blitzen and all his reindeers pullin' on the reins...

AB : What is the heck is wrong with you two? Its freaking October...everyone knows Christmas is in December...oh wait a minute..only the sane ones know..which makes one around here and thats me!

DB (still wearing the Santa hat) croons: Angel, you're being naughty and a joy killer. No presents for you. Weeeeee...

AB : Take that hat off.

DB : No.

AB : Take it off.

DB : I have heard someone tell me that before but it wasn't my hat they were asking me to take off. You know what I mean? *sniggers*

AB : Oh hell no... *tackles DB and both fall off Ben's shoulder*



Ah, I really love Christmas. Its the time of the year where I'm the happiest and feel like a kid again. And now its only two months away. I'm so freaking happy!!



*Mentally goes bungee jumping to celebrate..jumps off the cliff...


WooohooooooooooYeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaWooohooooohoooooooohahahahahaTHIS IS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!


*snap*


Wait that was not the rope was it?


AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Oh My God Nononononono

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh...

My Reason To Cling

" Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world, maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you." - Lucas Eugene Scott

My Silent Corridor ( A post for me)

(Warning : This is a long boring post I wrote for me. No lame jokes this time. So if you got other things to do right now, I suggest you skip this.)

Since I started this blog, it has always been my happy place. The place I came to dump all my crap, sarcastic quotes and ideas. I have always tried to keep it that way, I have never tried chronicled any of my feelings and thoughts because like I said, this was my happy place and my place of Zen. But lately things have gotten so crappy and so out of hand, something more than an 18 year old should deal with. I'm justly plainly overwhelmed to the point of suffocation. So I figured maybe chronicling my thoughts would somehow help release the stress that is fast turning unbearable.

It was after table tennis. I just snucked out of the hall and to the corridor of a form 3 class nearby and sat there. It was nice, overlooking the plants, the sun beating down on it and the bell erected there in the middle. I was alone and totally alone, which was nice as it allowed me to be alone with my thoughts and just try to make plain sense of what I have been going through. A nice quiet mental monologue.

I began to think how I got to where I am today, how things were so different during the more carefree days. Things used to be simple back then, come to school and just plainly enjoy talking and laughing with my friends. And it was nice because it was easy. I never knew that it was noticeable and visible until a friend asked me why am I so moody lately? School used to my place to escape everything, it was like going to sleep at night and for awhile, your dreams feel real and there are no worries or troubles that plague you. Just your dreams. That was what it was like spending time with my friends but I can't even do that lately. Sure, I put on a charade and that big 100 watt smile but inside I don't feel anything anymore...somehow. Joking was my thing and I'd tell my friends stupid stuff, things I have heard and when they laughed, it made me happy too. But now whenever I tell a joke or try to, I get this strange, hollow feeling on the inside that I can't even begin to fathom. Even when people are laughing because of it. Laughing along used to be fun, now its just so I don't feel weird .Laughter is nothing more than a hollow bray. Even the comedies, my stress killer, that which makes me happy for a short while don't seem to have any bearings anymore. And if I lose school and my comedies, I honestly don't know what I have left.

Sometimes when I talk to my good friends, especially the dong from australia, I feel like the old me again. Suddenly a wave of quiet confidence and reassurance comes across me. But these moments are fleeting. And then they are just gone. You know something is screwed up when you are stuck to trying to find who you were and just try to be that person again. When I say I need a vacation, I mean it. Away from everything, just me in a place where nobody knows me and maybe somehow that person might come back again. All happy, nice, sarcastic and maybe funny.

Somewhere along the line, something went wrong. I just don't know what. Something triggered all the things that bother me that I have been trying to hide. I tell myself I have to be strong for the sake of those closest to me, but theres comes a point where a man, actually a boy can't take it anymore. The burden becomes overwhelming and he breaks down and nothing else matters anymore. I can only do this much to handle it before it all comes crashing down.

I guess I just gotta figure stuff out. This corridor monologue was nice. It allowed me to just think and try to talk some sense into myself. It was nice. Peaceful and serene. For awhile. I need to find a place in school where I can just escape and be alone. The stairs of the second floor that I go to during free periods obviously don't work. I sat at the corridor for almost half an hour I guess before the sounds of the scraping and folding tables reminded me that I had to get back to the hall. Well, I guess right now, I just gotta find one thing. The one thing I have lost while getting caught up in all this. The one that is the most important to me. Who was I before all this? How was I like before all this? I just don't wanna lose my friends because of the person I'm becoming as I know, just as much as I feel like I'm falling apart this time, I can't keep up the everyday happy facade up for long. Pretty soon I might be loner. Or maybe I'm already becoming one what with my escapes.

My Tag II

The last person to tag you is:
Nicholas


What relationship of u with him/her:
Friend
Brother
My guru/ advisor...haha

Your 5 impression towards him:
Horny
Short
Likes to show off stuff he doesn't have =P
Great crapper
Good advisor (hah theres actually one good one)


The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you:
Wrote an incredibly *cough* interesting novel in form 5...actually he provided the storyline and I wrote..his descriptive english is crappy...autobots and decepticons =.=...dude you better still have it otherwise Ms Katarina Silvas will be pissed haha


The most memorable words that he/she said to you:
Take it slow and just bang!! (but seriously dude..how slow? )


If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
hahahahahahaha LMAO


If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
Kick him in the nuts (oh wait..he don't have any)


If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?:
hahahahahaha jeeez


If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is?:
I outdo him in departments related to height, length and looks? =)


The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?:
Give him a treat if taking it slow and banging really works out


The overall impression of him/her is?:
A good brother (Damn it I said something nice about the guy *bangs head against wall*)


How do you think the people around you will feel about you?:
Ok lets see, last time : sarcastic, funny and crazy; now : moody and temperamental


The character for yourself is:
I want that sarcastic I don't give a crap bastard back again. Ben!! Come back!!!


On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?:
My inability to ermm...haha can't tell...only close friends know

The most ideal person you want to be is?:
Tony Stark (right he is fictional but the dude is so freaking damn smooth)

For the persons who care and like you, say something about them:
I could say a million thank yous and use incredible adjectives yet none of them would even be sufficient to tell all of you how much you guys mean to me.

Ten people to tag:
1. Woei Chyuan
2. Kevin
3. Zheng Ying
4. Chun Yee
5. Heather
6. Tracy
7. Elaine
8. Darren
9. Kok Oon
10. Chien Wei

Who is number 2 having relationship with?
Haha...all I can say is poor singapore girls *sigh*

Is number 3 a male or female?
Male..what with all his real man drink guiness crap

If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
I honestly don't know..

How about number 5 and number 8?
Hmmm..I don't think they would match LOL

What is number 1 studying about?
Studying? Nono..he is too busy having all the girls in school trip over him XD

When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Woei Chyuan : 1 hour ago
Kevin : 1 week ago
Zheng Ying : 1 hour ago
Chun Yee : Yesterday
Heather : 2 months ago
Tracy : March in a gym I think
Elaine : Yesterday
Darren : Oh sweet mama..I don't remember
Kok Oon : Yesterday
Chien Wei : A few months ago

Is number 4 single?
Not sure...maybe a guy has taken him/her into his arms

Say something about number 2.
A prowling womanizer in a singapore who loves himself too much for his biceps. Loves muscle tees and grinding er stuff. Falls asleep while watching erm stuff..seriously who does that? Nice guy. Holds awesome barbeques. Gives bad advice to drunken lads =). How does running on treadmill help reduce drunkeness?

My Tag

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Ben

2. FB

3. Banana, Bananadict, Ben-A-Dick-Banana (once upon a time...don't ask me how I'm related to the fruit..I know squat either)



THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD :

1. Stevie G

2. Maverick

3. Ben An Ant



THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. My eyes..maybe

2. My .....

3. My ...... (I dunno..can i hate myself on the outside and love myself on the inside..erm thats sounds a teensy weensy wrong)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. My grow long and curls back up again hair

2. My unusually large nose...i guess

3. Not tall enough

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. Malaysian chinese

2. Malaysian Indian

3. Spanish =D

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. Losing the people I care deeply about..family and friends

2. Being disliked..I dunno I'm a bit self conscious that way

3. Horror movies and cockroaches

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. Talking to my friends

2. Listening to music

3. Sleep and siestas



THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:

1. T - shirt

2. Spectacles

3. Ermmm...oh yea pants



THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:

1. Backstreet Boys

2. Faber Drive

3. Justin Timberlake



THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):

1. Sleepless Nights - Faber Drive

2. When I'm With You - Faber Drive

3. Second Chance - Faber Drive (LOL all faber drive thanks to a friend XD )



THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

1. Love

2. Mutual trust

3. Joy

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. Eyes

2. Makes me laugh

3. Friendly and understands and occasionally humour the nutjob that I am

(The last two aren't physical..I know but thats what I really want..gotta be honest right?)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1. Playing basketball

2. Playing tennis

3. Hanging out with friends

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1. Have a nice talk with a friend to lighten myself up

2. Escape to somewhere so that I can relax..an island or Hawaii or what not

3. To find answers to my life

4. Eat something dipped in hot cheese

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:

1. Surgeon

2. Rockstar

3. Strike the lottery and just enjoy life =) (I want this one so badly...)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

1. Madrid, Spain..my god the food

2. Switzerland..nice and peaceful

3. Paris..the city of love..somehow I found out I love you in french don't sound all that romantic

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Find the special someone and have a happy and fun family

2. Lying in the grass on the Alps during spring and just relax

3. Jump into a nice beautiful clear lake and yell:" I'm the king of the world!"

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:

1. I get a bit too competitive for my own good

2. I talk crap with my dudes

3. I love cars but not much as my dad..he says he will take anything on wheels over anything on heels any day

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:

1. I care a bit too much?

2. I sometimes put others needs before my own

3. I am wee bit emotional and sensitive

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:

1. Anybody who would like to..this way nobody gets left out

My Reasoning

Be not afraid of greatness; some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them. - William Shakespeare

Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are. - Dale Carnegie

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day, to make you like everbody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting - e.e.cummings

Reflect on your present blessings, of which every man has many; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some. - Charles Dickens

Do not let the hero in your soul perish in the lonely frustration of the life you deserve but have never been able to reach. The life you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible.

When a man comes to die, no matter what his talents, influence and genius, if he dies unloved, his life must be a failure to him, and dying, a cold horror. It seems to me if you or I must choose between two courses of action or thought, we should remember our dying and try so to live that our death brings no pleasure to the world. - John Steinbeck

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. - William Shakespeare

When one has come to crossroads in the journey known as life, think it through the path which one chooses to take so that one may not lose sleep or have ones conscience hindered by the road, path not taken. I guess I should follow my own advice.

My Big Number

12th August 2008, approximately 12.56pm

Ben is scratching his head over math. Seriously, you know something is wrong with your exam when the teacher gives you 8 sheets of paper and you only use slightly more than one and you're almost done. Despondent, Ben takes a new sheet and starts writing his name, class, date...*checks his watch* 13th of August. "Wait a minute...today is my birthday? And I don't remember? And mom didn't say anything? Dad didn't call? Whats wrong with them? Its their son's birthday..what have they forgotten after 18 years..wait a second..whats wrong with me? I don't remember my own birthday...hey wait a minute.."

Ben remembers that the date of his watch is set one day faster and then it dawns on him that he has just waited precious time on his math exam and gets back to it.

Lesson learnt? Never set your watch a day faster, life is a already one big puzzle, you don't need another thing to make your head spin, especially during a math exam.

13th August
I'm 18. I just wanna thank all my friends who wished me on the day. You guys mean the world to me and I wouldn't know what I'd do if I don't have you guys in my life. I guess broody would be an overly accurate word of how I have been lately so I guess the photos will have to speak for themselves.

Rex wanted a slice too

My Advice From the Heart

Ah.."How to treat a lady"..a subject as old as time. And no one understands it better than a smooth-talking stud like.... =D

Since I live by the motto of sharing doubles joy and divides grief (except when it comes to food, you don't poke your hand into someone else's territory unless you wanna get your ass whupped, boy!!), here a little something something I would like to share because I'm a sharing and giving person and for the 7th time (I think.. xD) in my life, I'm being honest about it. Of course except when it comes to food because...

* DB: Oh shut up, we get the point*

1. When she asks how she looks shrug and say "could be better" this will keep her on her toes and girls love that.

2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. (Or if she grabs your hand squeeze hers really really hard until she cries. This will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are.)

3. Once a month sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs. They love to be roughed up.

4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If she is, say you better be. Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her you care.

5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement and every girl needs some improvement.

6. If you're talking to another girl, make sure shes looking. When she is, stare into her eyes mouth the words "f**k you" and grab the other girls ass. Girls love competition.

7. Introduce her to your friends as "some chick". Women love those special nicknames.

8. Warm her up when shes cold...and not by giving her your jacket... Then you might get cold. Rather, look her in the eye and say "if you don't stop bitching about the cold right now you're going to be bitching about a black eye." The best way to get warm is with fear.

9. Take her to a party. When you get there shell have to go to the bathroom (they always do). Leave immediately. Come back right when the party's dying and yell at her the whole way home for ditching you at the party.

10. Make her laugh. A good way to do this is if she has a small pet. Kick the pet. I always find stuff like that funny. Why shouldn't girls?

11. If you care about her never ever tell her. This will only give her self confidence. Then you can never turn her into the object she deep down desires to be.

12. Every time you're in her house steal one of the following: shoes, earrings, or anything else that comes in pairs. Only take one of the pair. This way shell go crazy.

13. Give her one of your t-shirts......and make sure it has your smell on it. but not a sexy cologne smell. A bad smell. You know what I'm talking about.

14. Titty twisters and plenty of them.

15. If you're listening to music, and she asks to hear it, tell her no. This way she'll think you're mysterious.

16. Remember her birthday but don't get her something. Teach her material objects aren't important. The only thing thats important is that she keeps you happy. And your happiness is the greatest present she can ever get.

17. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just when ever, take it and tell her you love it. Then next time you know she's coming over on a trash day leave the trash can open and have the present visibly sticking out of the can. Girls actually don't like this one that much but I think it's funny.

18. If shes mad at you for not calling her when you say you will promise her that you will call her at a certain time of the day. This will make sure that she waits by the phone. Tell her when you call you're going to tell her a special surprise. Now shell be really excited. Now don't call.

Of course, despite being a *cough*smooth *cough* machine, I did not compile all that, I found it. You know, being the nice and kind guy that I am, I wanted to help my fellow dudes out. Personal favourite : Number 6, made me laugh my pants off...ok not literally..

*Evil grin* Ah...The Joys of Sharing. It certainly doubles joy, mine at least. =)

My First Week

School starts..hah freakin' awesome. Days of studying, piles of homework and 7 hour a night sleeps are about to begin again (come on..the man needs 9 hours of rest). Hmm..it would be cool if my last name was De Man, a teacher would come in and ask:" Whose de man?" and I could stand up proudly and say:" I'M THE MAN!!"..okok scratch that, lets get back to the main topic. Well, of course there is also the plus side to form 6, no prizes for guessing what it is.


*Devil Ben: Girls!!
Ben : I thought I said no prizes for gues..what the..who the heck are you? Wheres the other guy?
Angel Ben: Here.
Ben : What the..you?! wheres the other guy?
Angel Ben: Who? Your inner voice? He bailed*


You know, the days when you have a song stuck in your head and you can't get it out though I can't quite remember the last time I had one in a long time..hmm
*Flashback...Chung Ling High School traditional ahem birthday ahem celebration on 13th August 2007, Ben is trapped by more than just a few guys and then pants come off. Oddly and fittingly, Simple Plan's Untitled was stuck in his head. How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes..----shakes head violently to get horrible images out of head*

Anyhuu being on a study hiatus for 6 months can do things to your memory even to your best subject. Mdm. Sim asks the class which group of gases all exists as diatomic molecules and I had no idea and the only thing I was getting in my head waS:" Deck the halls with smiling faces..tralalalala..lalalala. Hmm..odd. And that was pretty much the story of the day. Mr. Leong asks how do you calculate the possible subsets given the items in a universal set. Inside Ben's head:"Deck the halls with smiling faces..tralalalala..lalalala.." Oddly somehow, everytime a teacher asked a question that I didn't know, I keep getting a mental picture of gnomes grinning stupidly at me with that song in my head as I sat there clueless. Man, Day One was funky.



Day Two of school I had class monitor interview after recess. The time before that, I spent mostly doing bits and pieces of chemistry questions and once I got nowhere in that, I did the only thing I could have possibly done when faced with boredom, drowsiness and difficult chemistry questions, I started imagining the stuff I would do if I was invisible. *Head tilts to the left and mind drifts off to happy place..chuckles and proceeds to give devil Ben who had a stupid grin on his face a high five*



After recess, I had class monitor interview.
Interviewer: Please introduce yourself.
What I said: My name is Benedict Andrew Anthony. I'm studying in L6B4.
What I wanted to say: My name is Benedict Andrew Anthony and if you smirk at my name I'm gonna whup your ass cause I don't take cues from a pint sized kid who drew his self esteem from his necktie.

Interviewer: What characteristics do you think a good monitor possesses?
What I said: Someone who can cooperate with students and teachers..
What I wanted to say: *in a kickass american accent* Its pretty simple really. Someone who is better than you would probably make the cut or do they appoint nutcases like yourself these days?


Interviewer: You are used to all boy school, now that there are girls, what would you do if a girl and a boy got in a quarrel?
What I said: Solve it the same way like last time, it doesn't mean that the way of doing things would be different now that there are girls.
What I wanted to say: Well..*fake deep in thought expression on face and then...* It all depends on the whether the girl is hot or not cause we all help the damsel in distress otherwise I'm rooting for my homie.


Interviewer:What if a girl and a girl quarrel?
What I said: It also be the same.
What I wanted to say: *Makes an exaggerated grin* Are you kidding me? Run out to the class corridor and yell:" Catfight!!!" Then return with all my friends and do a Kelso (That 70s Show) impression, saying:" OKOK..heres what you do..you hair pull and you shirt rip!"


*Angel Ben & Devil Ben: Sigh!
Ben: What? I'm just writing for humor purposes..I'm not really like that!!
Angel Ben & Devil Ben: Sigh!
Ben: Really!!
Mom: Ben, you're 18..stop talking to yourself*

Day Three, first period Mr. CKK for general studies. He was already pretty darn pissed off when he came in, maybe he finally looked in the mirror the night before and discovered the "Grow Your Hair Fast Today - And The Girls Will Not Be Able to Keep You at Bay" cream he has been using for the past 20 year has not worked. Poor baldie. What a confused old lad. He even gave his handphone number to my girl classmates...LOL trying to recapture the smooth talking,womanizing, I-still-had-hair days are we, Mr. C? Haha..dream on, baldie, dream on....

Day Four, heres what happened. I forgot I had MUET presentation today!!! * A sudden flash of images of a deer with Ben's head crossing the road and staring wide-eyed at an oncoming truck.*
What that notion again, like a deer in headlights? So I prepared my MUET presentation all in my head during recess. I felt it was darn awesome actually.

"Good morning everybody. Unfortunately, I did not prepare anything today so lets just say *In Indian Accent* My name is Benedict Andrew Anthony. Ok, thats all you need to know. Seeing you"

Ok, I'm kidding...heres the real thing.

"Good morning everybody. Unfortunately, I don't have anything about endangered turtle nor China. Never been to China. So for my MUET presentation, I'm gonna do the most interesting topic I have found so far, Me!! Ok, my name is Benedict Andrew Anthony. So that there is no confusion, I'm half indian and half chinese. But whenever I go around, people always takes me to be Malay. But of course, there are exceptions, my form 2 history teacher did this. *Imitates teacher looking at name list* Benedict Andrew Anthony? Are you Portuguese? Yeah, its true. The messed up part is no one ever takes me to be indian or chinese. I once went to restaurant with my parents and you know, its confusing enough that my parents are indian and chinese and then I come along, you know, the "Malay". Once, I came to the table later than my parents, the waiter told me that the table was taken and I can sit at the next table and I had to convince him that I was their son.

You think thats messed up? Well, I don't speak tamil, nada, nil. Well, I know enough tamil to get me in trouble but thats it. If you spend some time at your grandparents place, you watch your fair share of tamil movies. The thing I learnt about Indians from those movies is that they are very creative and strong people. I tell you why. In tamil movies, a guy and a girl you know they will fall in love and then somehow they will wander to a mountain and then they find a tree, you know. They are strong cause in the movies when they fight, before they land a punch, they would already be a loud "dush". Yeah huh. And its very hard to kill indians, you shoot one in the heart, and he would wander from New Delhi all the way to Calcutta before finally dying. You know, he would be dying all the way, he can also manages to pull in a song too. *Imitates dying indian walking and makes indistinct tamil sounding sound to imitate singing*

The thing all Indians gotta do is go to Italy man, you know mess them up a bit. You see, the Italians think Indians are Italians. *shrugs*And you know, being indian, it was kinda cool to be Italian for a while you know. Then, the italians starts speaking Italian to you. And you would just look really retarded you know. *Mumbles in italian....sie(understand in italian)?* Haha..you si(in hokkien) man. When you finally tell him you're Indian, he would be shocked you know, like you told him you were a freaking ghost or something.*Imitates shocked Italian: Indiano? No Indiano?*

The another thing about me is I love sports, especially tennis. In a way sports is like studies, you have concentrate on every detail like you concentrate on every ball, every shot. And by putting your heart into what you do is the only way you will succeed.Thank you."

Not bad for a recess preparation eh? And by not bad, I mean pretty darn awesome. I did forget the Italy part, ah wasted, that was the bomb man, I loved that part. I felt nice that my classmates laughed during my presentation.

Day 5, TGIF indeed!!! I realise something though, I have been pretty clumsy lately.

* Shaggy's Mr Bombastic plays in the background.

Ben knocks on the edge of his table and almost falls.

Ben gets his ankles stuck in the straps of his bag and almost trips.

Ben loses the keys of his classes and then finds it in the next class.

Ben gets his tie stuck on his forehead while trying to get it off. (No kidding!)

Ben gets his finger stuck in a bottle handle and panicks.

Ben knocks his table and drops his water bottle when the teachers asks if anybody knows a certain girl and then everybody thinks he knows her that why he had such a big reaction to the name.

Ben makes odd exclamations and sounds while doing his homework.

Ben loses his car keys and finds it in his pocket.

Ben tries to open the door while carrying books with two hands. Classmate Audrey who was carrying many more books than he was, shifts it to one hand and opens the door with the other.*

Yeah, pretty darn indeed. Guess I signed the week off as the class' goofball. Awesome. Just freaking awesome.

My Orientation

Let me get this straight. Orientation pretty much leaves you disorientated. =) . Well, actually it doesn't, it leaves you kinda bored, I just wanted to play with the words =). The first week was kinda a blur because I was sleepy and blur and all. The plus side of this was I got to meet up with all my niggas, my nutcases and my nutjobs and let out all the pent up crap and stupid ideas I have accumulated in 5 months. Phew! Can't believe I said all that in one breath.



This was Day One.

Inner voice: Woohooo...this is gonna frigging awesome. Do note sarcasm.

Conscious mind: Shut the hell up!



Usually every year, the first day of school begins in the same o'le traditional manner. I had a horrible stomachache.*Echoes from Chung Ling toilet detect by orbiting satelites: OH DEAR GOD!!!!* So yeah, I can say that everything got off to an awesome start. In the hall, I was greeted by weng liang...haha one of my nutcases. Day one was boring and negative. Our bloody headmaster, Mr Y was busy telling everbody how we are not good enough for form 6. The only way he could have been more negative and discouraging was if he had physically grabbed each of us and haul our asses out of school eventhough he was already doing it verbally. Haha..if that should happen, I would be more than happy to give him a good kick to his "unmentionables". *Stops awhile to imagine the look on the vice principal's face and sniggers at the thought...the mixture of bemused shock and pain would have been priceless*

Day Two.

Sometimes in life, I wish I had the universal remote. During the time before a highly anticipated football match, I could fast forward to kick off. During an argument with a friend, I could pause and think of kickass one liners or long unending lines that would leave him uneasy and speechless.
(Friend leans on a wall while everybody is busy trying to finish the important portfolio.
Ben: Hey dude, the only way you could less productive right now was if you were in fact the wall you are leaning against which wouldn't be half bad coz you would be providing a jackass with a wall to lean on to contemplate on what a sorry jackass he is.
Friend: Wha...)
Ok, that was not original but it was still cool.
*Looks off into the distance, a hint of tears in his eyes, Ben thinks: Ahh..the sweet, blissful sound of victory.
Inner voice: Man, this guy is coo coo.*

During my time on the treadmill in the gym, I could press slow-mo if there was a hot girl jogging beside me and then...*sound of tyres screehing to a grinding halt* You know what, I'm getting carried away, lets get back to orientation.
*Inner voice: WHAT??!!! You have got to be effing kidding me...just when it was getting interesting.
Conscious mind: Shaaaad up!*

So lets fast forward. Just like a lousy sitcom which has too low a budget for build-up and goes straight to the punchline. It would be called Cutting to the Chase. The show where we skip the bluffs and bring you the laughs. Hmm...that was pretty good. Whats that, left hand? I'm-the-most-self-admiring, awesome-dude-in-the-world-self high five? Hah..right on! *Slaps right hand and left hand together*
Memorable scenes from Cutting to the Chase : Orientation

Qu Wern, Zheng Ying and I were talking about girls.
Qu Wern : I kinda like fat girls.
Zheng Ying : What? Fetish ar?
All three : LMAO

Zi Huang and I were standing in front of Qu Wern.
Zi Huang (looking at Qu Wern's shoes) : I bet you this guy doesn't wash his shoes.
Ben (sneering at Zi Huang) : I bet you Qu Wern is also tall.
Zi Huang, puzzled : What?
Ben : What? I thought we were all offering worthless information ma
Zi Huang laughs: What la...KL la you

Zi Huang, Qu Wern and I were walking back to the mini-hall. Zi Huang eating a donut.
Zi Huang drops his donut on the road, picks it up and blows it and continues to eat it.
Ben: What? You still eat it eventhough you drop it on the road ar?
Qu Wern: Food is very prescious to this guy la.
Zi Huang: Eh! You know people of the Si Chuan earthquake have food no matter what also eat ok!
Zi Huang: Damn! I'm thirsty la..Qu Wern, do you have water?
Qu Wern: Don't have. Go drink the tap water la.
Zi Huang: What?! Don't want la!
Ben : Eh! You know people of the Si Chuan earthquake have tap water also drink ok!
Zi Huang laughs: Benedict, you nowadays talking KL.

P.K. Tan Weng Liang (prom king..lmao) and I were talking about global warming. The lecturer's slide read : The earth is sick!!!
PK Tan : Earth sick liao ma give him panadol lo.
Ben : Really ar?
PK Tan : Really la!
Ben : Then where is the earth's mouth?
Both stare at each other then start laughing after realising what a pointless and stupid interchange that was.

*Slips out of fast forward mental mode and come backs to real life*
The rest of the days were boring except for game day which was quite decent to say the least. It was kinda fun. Hah! Ben enjoys games in Chung Ling..thats something new, maybe it has something to do with the fact that it involves water and there are girls this time...*tyres grind to a second screehing halt* Oh-kay, before I give too much away, lets just say games were pretty fun and furthermore, victor, weng liang and chuckie were in my group. We were like a group of nutcases howling and screeching our way through the games like a band of crazed banshees. I know banshees are usually female but we would have given them a good run for their money considering the fact that I now have a very sore throat.

*Tilts head to the left and day dream*
Jeff Foxworthy says:" Welcome everybody to today's edition of "Screech for your Bia-tch". In the red corner, we have the group from Chung Ling with their own masculine version of high decibel vocal chords. In the blue corner, we have our all time champions, the banshees. Now people before we begin you all have to promise me, the losing team has to tell the winning team: we are your bia-tch!!! Do we have a deal? Ok..lets begin!!"

Snapping out of it, mutters to self: That was one big load of crap. Phew! I can't believe I'm letting this out, reputation on the line, folks. Toodles.

Ending Credits for "Cutting to the Chase : Orientation" runs.....

My Inconvenient Truth

The truth can be mortifying sometimes. War causing mindless and cold bloodshed, global warming and pollution causing the weather to become unpredictable (but mostly hot...). But to me, the most mortifying truth of all is this, Form 6 is about to start soon. *Man falling off a cliff: NOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo*

That truth struck me when I was chatting with Tushy Tan...No disrespect meant brother =). After so many months of relaxation and having no cause for anxiety or stress, its all finally coming to an abrupt end. I feel life is too paradoxical, during the holidays, I missed school and my friends and a small part of me wanted to go back to school, now that the holiday is about to end, I don't want it to end, I suddenly don't mind staying at home and not studying. Like that boy in tennis training's mom said, how many rocket scientist do you need? (She was cool, she is british and speaks with "la"s and "aduh"s in it)

But then talking Tushy Tan (haha no disrespect bro..if you happen to read this, c'mon... nobody knows who you really are, and you gotta admit thats a pretty solid nickname), I realised it might not be so bad after all. We are gonna have girls for classmates too and we have to just pray to the almighty that they are hot and friendly and not too into studying.( Inner voices yells: And have low self esteem too!!! Conscious mind replies: Shut up!) Gestures to self, on the right hand, beautiful girls who are really friendly; on the left hand not-so-good-looking girls who are totally into studying and achieving good results and can be my study partner. Whats that, right hand? Left hand sucks. Hah, WORD!!!

So now with about 2 weeks or less left, I guess I have to cherish every moment and grab life by the scruff of the neck and just enjoy it as much as I can. Just like Barney (Not purple Dino) said: Our forefathers died for the pursuit of happiness, not the sit-and-wait for happiness. You gotta grab life by the crack and lick the crap out of it. I guess you gotta live every moment like its your last cause you just don't know what might waiting around in the corner for you in this life.

Inner voice sniggers: You watch kiddy shows.
Conscious mind : Shut up. My reasoning and ideas are something that is too complicated for a pea brain like yourself to understand.
Inner voice retaliates: Thats not fair!! I'm a part of you too.
Conscious mind: I'm sorry..whats that? You gotta get somebody to translate for you cause I don't understand or speak fluent moron!
Inner voice : Now thats just low.

Peace people. Sorry to bother y'all with my inner struggle.

My Top 10s

My Top 10 Favourite Bands/ Music Artist

1. Backstreet Boys (I'm not gay..they really rock)
2. Justin Timberlake
3. Bon Jovi
4. Howie Day
5. Maroon 5
6. Rascal Flatts
7. Albert Hammond
8. Ryan Cabrera
9. Coldplay
10. Simple Plan

My Top 10 Favourite Movies

1. The Matrix Reloaded
2. Gladiator
3. Armageddon
4. Air Force One
5. Top Gun
6. Transformers
7. Underworld
8. Van Helsing
9. Click! (what wonders I could do if I had that remote...evil chuckles...tilts head to the left and begins daydream)
10. National Treasure
11. National Treasure : The Book of Secrets
    

(so what if that was 11, my blog...my rules..)

My Top 10 Favourite TV Shows

1. Scrubs (JD and Dr. Cox seriously rock..)
2. Psych
3. Two and A Half Men
4. Prison Break
5. Smallville
6. How I Met Your Mother
7. That 70s Show
8. One Tree Hill

(Again....my blog..my rules =) )

My Top 10 Favourite Female Celebrities

1. Alessandra Ambrosio
2. Kate Beckinsale
3. Megan Fox
4. Maria Sharapova
5. Jessica Biel
6. Scarlett Johansson
7. Kristin Kreuk
8. Shakira
9. Ali Larter
10. Jennifer Love Hewitt

(This was possibly the most difficult list of my life...worst than life goals or ambitions or history essay or what not...)

My Heroes

Since I was a kid, I have been able to sleep through anything in my life. House alarms, Fire alarms, dog howls, dog barks, ghost movies....ok wait not entirely true, but I have always been a sound sleeper. Tuesday night I got no sleep, my nuts were screaming :" Go watch football!!!" or was it my head. So I did, at 2.30 in the morning. So here a picture of what Benedict Andrew Anthony, aged 17, height 178cm and weight 74kg went through in the wee hours of the morning from a third person's person point of view. The match began in earnest, Arsenal grabs early control of possession, Ben sits at the edge of his seat transfixed, possibly cursing aloud in his head (God knows..). His mouth has been open for 10 minutes now and he has not realised it.

Alexander Hleb's pass to Abou Diaby penetrates the Liverpool, he blasts it into the net. Ben's mouth opens even wider, but though his mouth is open, he decides to lambast the Liverpool goalkeeper in his head. Arsenal continue to control match and leave Liverpool chasing shadows. Ben can't sit still, its as if his pants is on fire.
Then, Liverpool win a corner. Liverpool's rearguard veteran, Sami Hyypia eludes the cluthes of Phillipe Senderos and manage to tet his head to the ball. The ball goes into the goal in off the post. Anfield erupts. Ben heaves a sigh of relief and finally sits back in the sofa. He thanks god for creating Cesc Fabregas to be short. He smiles at the big, fat clumsy nut job that is Phillipe Senderos.

Second half, Fernando "El Nino Wonderkid" Torres gets his first sniff of a chance at goal in the entire match....
He strikes it sweetly and the ball lashes into the top corner of the Kop net. Manuel Almunia has no chance.
He goes off to celebrate with the adoring Kop. Thank you Rafa for bringing to Liverpool the boy from sunny Spain. Ben goes bonkers in the living room, jumping and waving his fist like a junkie on crack. It really seems like sheer ecstasy in a weird, crazy sort of way.

85th minute, Theo Walcott danced around the Liverpool defence on the counter attack, so its 4 Arsenal players against a hapless Martin Skrtel and poor ole Pepe Reina. He picks out Emmanuel Adebayor and he taps it into the net beyond Reina's outstreched palm. Ben sinks to his knees, looking lifeless and pale.

86th minute, Ryan Babel dazzles the Arsenal defence and drives past Kolo Toure, the desperate defender manhandles Babel in the penalty box and he goes down. Ref points to the spot. Ben goes nuts again!! Jumping around the living room at 4.15am in the morning. Captain Fantastic, Steven Gerrard steps up to take the kick. Ben mouths:" Please score...please score....please score...

He hits it........ Into the top corner, Anfield erupts, the earth shakes. Lorong Sungai Batu 2 shook too as the nomber 25 house erupted.
He reels off the celebrate as Liverpool prove their worth in Europe and have one foot in the semi finals.
Arsenal throw everything forward at Liverpool. It was gung ho time. All or nothing. Liverpool catch Arsenal on the break deep in stoppage time.

A desperate clearance from the Reds rearguard becomes a hopeful ball for Ryan Babel. He may be further from the ball than Cesc Fabregas but his sheer pace overcomes the difference. He outpaces the hapless Gunners Midfield General and with composure, passes the into the net beyond Manuel Almunia. And with only half a minute remaining, Liverpool seal their semi final berth.
Ryan Babel thanked the heavens and so did Ben.

Two of Liverpool's finest celebrate at the end of a great night at Anfield. One that would probably go down in the history books. Ben does a victory dance in the living room which is sore to the eye of the observer so here is where the third person leaves us...

What a great night, it was so unbelievable. I have only one regret, I wished I was at Anfield.

Final score: Liverpool 4 Arsenal 2

My Reds

Heres a million dollar question...which numb nut finally decided to update his blog after close to 3 months??
If you guessed me, you got it spot on buddy boy!! (buddy boy?!)
You know what, lets scratch that. Just stick with you got it spot on eh?
Heres another million dollar question, what do guys wanna see most??
If you guessed boo...
Ok I'm getting carried away, lets scratch that too aite.
Personally, I feel like I have accomplished a lot during the past 2 and a half months. Lets see...

• Got stuck in an elevator with 3 transexuals at 1 o'clock in the morning. ( The trip down from the 14th floor never felt so long in my life.)


• Danced to Martin Sexton's Diner in the bathroom in front of the mirror. (And of course...Look Ma!! No pants...haha luckily the door was shut and locked)


• Got a lil wozzy (or was it dizzy?) after 5 glasses of wine and 2 glasses of champagne.


• Cut my hair almost to the point of baldness =) Come on its an accomplishment, it really took a lot of nuts and stones. (Hmmm..somehow that doesn't sound right...a lot of nuts and stones...awh well)

Considering its approximately 2 per month, I guess I'm doing pretty darn good myself. The only thing I guess I have not accomplished is I'm not getting it daily, nightly and ever so rightly. Quote from Scrubs...guys should know what I mean =)

Anyway, heres a tribute to one of the best early mornings I have ever had in my entire life.

Liverpool 4 Arsenal 2

It was a really thrilling, nail-biting, edge of your seat match, I was so anxious that my....................................Only I will know what I just said XD. IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME. Its really true, Scousers rule the world.

My First Life

I woke up at 9 this morning, somehow something told me that it was still early so I went back to bed and slept until 11. You know, life is full of surprises and you never know what lays ahead and neither did I. Though sometimes some surprises can knock you on the arse or let you have an epiphany.

I went to queensbay with mom to look for something to put in the china, but like so many times we didn't find anything. Then on the way back, we ran into my two nutcases, khai hern and woei chyuan. Mom said I could follow them and go watch a movie if I wanted to. You know, I'm not known for my ability to sprint but I ran out of the car in a whistle, leaving a trail of floating dust in my wake..haha yeah right. Being with my friends meant that I could let out all the pent up crap, lame jokes and crazy ideas that I have built up staying at home for last month, seriously it can make your brain go coo-coo.

We watched Rambo 4, which was a bloodbath...though watching it only fed my fantasy of being a sniper, not that I wanna kill anybody but the name Gunnery Sergeant Benedict Andrew seems to have a nice ring to it. Gunnery Sergeant Benedict Andrew...oooohhhh...shivers. Anyway, reaching home, I proceeded to fixing the new lantern we bought for the house and for a fleeting moment, I saw a malay dude running past my house with a humongous bamboo stick on his shoulder...though I paid little attention to him.

You know, if I felt I witnessed a decent amount of brutality in Rambo, I was shown how inhumane and brutal people can be in my own backyard. When I went to the back of house, I heard a series of yelping of a dog in pain and to my pain, the sound of people cheering. I put two and two together, and realised what was going on. As dashed out of my house, I saw the malay guy with the bamboo stick pummeling a small dog with it, indiferent to the poor dog's painful yelps. As I approached, the malay guy quickly strode away and the crowd of kids cycled away. Maybe they thought I was the dog's owner or maybe it was the sight of me in my undersized PE shirt from form 1 which made me seem burly as I had been working out in a gym..hehe..I guess I should take 5 seconds here for self amusement.

I saw the poor white dog hiding underneath a van. It was covered in mud and was bleeding terribly out of his mouth and one of its legs was crooked and broken, it was clearly in pain. It had a tag and license and clearly belonged to somebody. I tried to coax it out from underneath the van, stroking his head gently with my hand...but it would not come out. If that malay guy was still there, I would have given him a taste of his medicine, coz I was burning with fury and nothing can stop me when I'm in that state. I brought the poor dog a little water but it was clearly too shaken to drink and I bet it has all but loss its trust in humanity.

Luckily the owner of the house behind which the dog was hiding was a nice guy and with him around, I doubt the malay guys would come back and thankfully when I got home, I didn't hear much noise or a commotion of any kind. I hope the dog is safe, though considering the size of the bamboo stick, I'm sure it must have been bleeding internally. It is sad to see the uncivilised nature of people who torture for fun and I can't believe the fact that those malay kids were cheering him on. At least I guess me going there, probably saved the dog from being beaten to death and I am thankful for that.

That made me realised how I sometimes take my own dog, Rex for granted. I realised that I need to spend more time with him rather than my computer as he is almost like the little brother that I never had, amusing me when I'm bored and keeping me company.


It also made me wanna be a doctor even more. I realised how valuable life is and being a doctor, will allow me to make a difference in society and save peoples' lives. Seeing the relief and thankfulness on their faces is something I long for. My parents want me to be a doctor mostly because of the money but I wanted to find a reason, a purpose before I commited myself to anything. Today, I realised how I cherish life and how I want to take care of someone in dire need and make a difference in society.


I guess today is the day I have found my reason because today is the day I saved my first life.

Rex, lying on the floor, cute fella

My Friend With Sticks

Most people wake up everyday with a new feeling, a new day, new opportunities. I however woke up with sore groin and a sore butt. Who knew playing futsal can give your tush a battering. I can't help but remember the game last night, I was playing with my dad's colleague. Though I'm right footed, right wing is not a really a nice position for me. Despite that, I scored two goals both of which squirmed through the keeper's legs though I could swear that I was aiming for the goal and nothing else.

As I dragged my sore butt around, I remember today to be the day that Wei Xian departs for Perth. All those jokes about him going to New Zealand and milking cows, having aussie girls laugh at him for being short and thin-legged felt just like yesterday and now he is really going.

For someone who I knew for just one year, I'd say we got along pretty well. I have said this time and time again, but the thing I'm gonna miss the most about him going to Perth is that I'm not gonna have anybody to laugh at anymore and I mean that in the best possible way. He is not the brightest guy when it comes to pranks though he tries to play many and most of the time, he is the one who takes a beating when his pranks go bad. First, there was the time when he tries to fill his bottle cap with water to throw at me yet before he could do anything, tzin yung hit his hand and he wound up getting his own shirt wet. Then, there was the time when he tried to pull a prank I taught him. He wanted to make Nick follow his hand with Nick's eye and just when Nick did not expect it, he wanted to man check Nick like what I did to him. Unfortunately, just when he asked Nick to do that, Nick slapped him in the face. The laughters to this one never ended.

Then, there was the time when the whole class ganged up and took off his pants. Haha..it was fun having a nut like him in class. Now that he is off to Perth, I hope that we can still keep in touch and I can a chance to laugh at him and with him again in the future. I wish him all the best in all areas of life, since he is going to australia, a place known for ..well..lets just stop there shall we..hehe. Imaginary toast to Wei Xian, the guy who had thin sticks for legs and the one who ain't the brightest. And again, I mean that in the nicest possible way with good intentions. Kudos, my friend, you're a mate. Best of luck.

As we all hugged and joked at the airport when we were sending him off, I realised there will come a time in life where you will leave the people who were a big part of your life behind. You can only be thankful that you knew them and hope that your paths cross again in the future so that they can light up your life with fun and laughter the way they used to. In my case, probably laughter as I have found out that it is one of the few things that keep me going in life though a sore butt really doesn't help.

My Imaginary Handcuffs

I woke up this sunday morning to find myself handcuffed to my bed, and alessandra ambrosio was bearing down on me (which is a good thing by the way), but then just when her beautiful face was only a few inches away from mine, I really woke up....no imaginary handcuffs though. Life is often more simple and more perfect in my dreams, sometimes i wish I could just stay there, no complications, no rules, no boundaries and just alessandram ambrosio..

Damn it, damn it, damn it...I guess last night's Forbes Top 20 richest supermodels has not blown over yet. Frankly, I did not really care about the ranking..I mean really I don't. I wonder when I can ever meet some girl who is that mind blowingly, ridiculously, incredibly (yo..shut up with the adjectives and get on with it) beautiful. *mind wonders off to another place..I'd like to call my happy place*

*Mind returns* Holiday has started to take on a rather routine pattern, Its a sunday morning, I have breakfast and Rex is barking at me to give him my food which probably translates to some foul words in doggenese. So much so, that I have started to practise saying hello in a tone that is similar to JD in scrubs. It sounded like fun. It has been quite successful. Ehloooo. Yes indeed. I also found a new nickname for myself which I think sounds cool, "Player". *Smiles to myself, amused and imagining myself in a black suit, on a racing bike, I slowly put my shades on for the cool effect and then mouth:" Hola Chica."* Snapping out of that, I think to myself, at least this time I'm the one nicknaming myself for a change not more bananadict crap.

I feel stuck at home,,,ah ha...handcuffed to my house..like there is nothing I can do..you know I wanna live life to the fullest coz this time might be my only chance but I can't seem find something interesting and worthwhile that I can endorse myself to. I feel like I have a lot of unfinished things I want to do yet I can't recall any one of them. As lay in bed to sleep on the first day of another week, while hugging my bolster girlfriend, Sasha, I realised life is short, every day, every hour, every second which has passed cannot be relived, so I figured I wanna find something worthwhile to do this holiday, I still don't know what it is but I hope it will come to me soon. Cause life is too short to be wasted.

Devil Ben on left shoulder : Oh lookie here, the philosophical dude

Angel Ben on right shoulder : You no longer exist, you crackpot, remember the new years resolution?

Ben : Shut up you two, I wanna sleep.

My New Year Resolution

Today, most of my friends have already gone to college. I feel a bit left out cause everyone is like taking the next step in their lives and meeting new friends and I'm stuck at home with my mutt who spent the day licking the carpet. At least my parents save on both college fees and dry cleaning. I figured to prevent myself from doing nothing and accomplishing null...I figured I make a list of my new years resolution and hopefully accomplish them.
Drum roll.....(u gotta stop doing that)

• Stop imagining that your life is a comedy and you are the main character
• Complete gym training and get a ripped body...yea rite
• Finish learning german
• Master the guitar
• Quit talking with a lot ahem innuendo
• Sleep earlier
• Concentrate on studies
• Stop watching scrubs cause it is taking over your life
• Never change my ambition again...its set : surgeon
• Never write a new years resolution again if I don't accomplish any of these
• Grow taller..come on hormones..just two more inches...will a group of hot cheerleaders help your progress?

(Spotlight shines on Ben as stand atop a mountain having accomplish all his goals)

Note to self: stop imagining things.

I really look forward to tomorrow morning..football...boombaby! I really need to go to bed soon though cause Ming Han is giving me pipe dreams that some cute girl wanna ask me out on a date...Really? Ah shut up and go to sleep....

One last resolution: Stop doing the angel Ben on right shoulder and devil Ben on left shoulder debate thing

My Last Day

A whole month of watching scrubs finally brought me to the end of 2007, I feel like I'm almost become J.D. though with my own spin on it. Somehow scrubs made me wanna go to med school even more though I know life is not as easy as it is in this comedy. I spent the last day of 2007 with my friends in Gurney, it was kinda fun though it was very hot. When I saw that performance outside, I just couldn't get the image of me suddenly running up and moonwalking past the singers out of my head. Though that would be smashing (and stupid). We also met a few friends and I tried as hard as I could to piss off those who were working. Actually I piss people off a bit too frequently, Ming Han and Chien Wei were called "newly-weds" the whole night cause they happened to be wearing matching clothes. When I met one of my old friend who changed a lot, it made me realised that people do change and the people she was mixing with was a bit shocking too but still inside, she was the same person I had known for so long. Thinner too! I was really glad I got to meet her though she seemed play hard to get..we had to look for her everywhere. I also saw a group of gothic people, jeeez when they walked past me i felt like there was some kind of eerie music playing in my head...too much scrubs. Finally, it was countdown and then 2008. The fireworks were quite nice. Of course, 12.15am was way past the time I was allowed to come out so I kinda rushed up the stairs. As I did so, I realised I have never ever made a new years resolution and my past few new years were quite unmemorable well more cause I don't remember them. Things have to change for 2008 and so I made up my mind, resolution is to complete my gym training. =) Come on.. give the man a break. And there it goes, my habit of having a monologue in my head and narrating my own life continues. Too much scrubs, dawg. And there it goes again...