My First Life

I woke up at 9 this morning, somehow something told me that it was still early so I went back to bed and slept until 11. You know, life is full of surprises and you never know what lays ahead and neither did I. Though sometimes some surprises can knock you on the arse or let you have an epiphany.

I went to queensbay with mom to look for something to put in the china, but like so many times we didn't find anything. Then on the way back, we ran into my two nutcases, khai hern and woei chyuan. Mom said I could follow them and go watch a movie if I wanted to. You know, I'm not known for my ability to sprint but I ran out of the car in a whistle, leaving a trail of floating dust in my wake..haha yeah right. Being with my friends meant that I could let out all the pent up crap, lame jokes and crazy ideas that I have built up staying at home for last month, seriously it can make your brain go coo-coo.

We watched Rambo 4, which was a bloodbath...though watching it only fed my fantasy of being a sniper, not that I wanna kill anybody but the name Gunnery Sergeant Benedict Andrew seems to have a nice ring to it. Gunnery Sergeant Benedict Andrew...oooohhhh...shivers. Anyway, reaching home, I proceeded to fixing the new lantern we bought for the house and for a fleeting moment, I saw a malay dude running past my house with a humongous bamboo stick on his shoulder...though I paid little attention to him.

You know, if I felt I witnessed a decent amount of brutality in Rambo, I was shown how inhumane and brutal people can be in my own backyard. When I went to the back of house, I heard a series of yelping of a dog in pain and to my pain, the sound of people cheering. I put two and two together, and realised what was going on. As dashed out of my house, I saw the malay guy with the bamboo stick pummeling a small dog with it, indiferent to the poor dog's painful yelps. As I approached, the malay guy quickly strode away and the crowd of kids cycled away. Maybe they thought I was the dog's owner or maybe it was the sight of me in my undersized PE shirt from form 1 which made me seem burly as I had been working out in a gym..hehe..I guess I should take 5 seconds here for self amusement.

I saw the poor white dog hiding underneath a van. It was covered in mud and was bleeding terribly out of his mouth and one of its legs was crooked and broken, it was clearly in pain. It had a tag and license and clearly belonged to somebody. I tried to coax it out from underneath the van, stroking his head gently with my hand...but it would not come out. If that malay guy was still there, I would have given him a taste of his medicine, coz I was burning with fury and nothing can stop me when I'm in that state. I brought the poor dog a little water but it was clearly too shaken to drink and I bet it has all but loss its trust in humanity.

Luckily the owner of the house behind which the dog was hiding was a nice guy and with him around, I doubt the malay guys would come back and thankfully when I got home, I didn't hear much noise or a commotion of any kind. I hope the dog is safe, though considering the size of the bamboo stick, I'm sure it must have been bleeding internally. It is sad to see the uncivilised nature of people who torture for fun and I can't believe the fact that those malay kids were cheering him on. At least I guess me going there, probably saved the dog from being beaten to death and I am thankful for that.

That made me realised how I sometimes take my own dog, Rex for granted. I realised that I need to spend more time with him rather than my computer as he is almost like the little brother that I never had, amusing me when I'm bored and keeping me company.


It also made me wanna be a doctor even more. I realised how valuable life is and being a doctor, will allow me to make a difference in society and save peoples' lives. Seeing the relief and thankfulness on their faces is something I long for. My parents want me to be a doctor mostly because of the money but I wanted to find a reason, a purpose before I commited myself to anything. Today, I realised how I cherish life and how I want to take care of someone in dire need and make a difference in society.


I guess today is the day I have found my reason because today is the day I saved my first life.

Rex, lying on the floor, cute fella

My Friend With Sticks

Most people wake up everyday with a new feeling, a new day, new opportunities. I however woke up with sore groin and a sore butt. Who knew playing futsal can give your tush a battering. I can't help but remember the game last night, I was playing with my dad's colleague. Though I'm right footed, right wing is not a really a nice position for me. Despite that, I scored two goals both of which squirmed through the keeper's legs though I could swear that I was aiming for the goal and nothing else.

As I dragged my sore butt around, I remember today to be the day that Wei Xian departs for Perth. All those jokes about him going to New Zealand and milking cows, having aussie girls laugh at him for being short and thin-legged felt just like yesterday and now he is really going.

For someone who I knew for just one year, I'd say we got along pretty well. I have said this time and time again, but the thing I'm gonna miss the most about him going to Perth is that I'm not gonna have anybody to laugh at anymore and I mean that in the best possible way. He is not the brightest guy when it comes to pranks though he tries to play many and most of the time, he is the one who takes a beating when his pranks go bad. First, there was the time when he tries to fill his bottle cap with water to throw at me yet before he could do anything, tzin yung hit his hand and he wound up getting his own shirt wet. Then, there was the time when he tried to pull a prank I taught him. He wanted to make Nick follow his hand with Nick's eye and just when Nick did not expect it, he wanted to man check Nick like what I did to him. Unfortunately, just when he asked Nick to do that, Nick slapped him in the face. The laughters to this one never ended.

Then, there was the time when the whole class ganged up and took off his pants. Haha..it was fun having a nut like him in class. Now that he is off to Perth, I hope that we can still keep in touch and I can a chance to laugh at him and with him again in the future. I wish him all the best in all areas of life, since he is going to australia, a place known for ..well..lets just stop there shall we..hehe. Imaginary toast to Wei Xian, the guy who had thin sticks for legs and the one who ain't the brightest. And again, I mean that in the nicest possible way with good intentions. Kudos, my friend, you're a mate. Best of luck.

As we all hugged and joked at the airport when we were sending him off, I realised there will come a time in life where you will leave the people who were a big part of your life behind. You can only be thankful that you knew them and hope that your paths cross again in the future so that they can light up your life with fun and laughter the way they used to. In my case, probably laughter as I have found out that it is one of the few things that keep me going in life though a sore butt really doesn't help.

My Imaginary Handcuffs

I woke up this sunday morning to find myself handcuffed to my bed, and alessandra ambrosio was bearing down on me (which is a good thing by the way), but then just when her beautiful face was only a few inches away from mine, I really woke up....no imaginary handcuffs though. Life is often more simple and more perfect in my dreams, sometimes i wish I could just stay there, no complications, no rules, no boundaries and just alessandram ambrosio..

Damn it, damn it, damn it...I guess last night's Forbes Top 20 richest supermodels has not blown over yet. Frankly, I did not really care about the ranking..I mean really I don't. I wonder when I can ever meet some girl who is that mind blowingly, ridiculously, incredibly (yo..shut up with the adjectives and get on with it) beautiful. *mind wonders off to another place..I'd like to call my happy place*

*Mind returns* Holiday has started to take on a rather routine pattern, Its a sunday morning, I have breakfast and Rex is barking at me to give him my food which probably translates to some foul words in doggenese. So much so, that I have started to practise saying hello in a tone that is similar to JD in scrubs. It sounded like fun. It has been quite successful. Ehloooo. Yes indeed. I also found a new nickname for myself which I think sounds cool, "Player". *Smiles to myself, amused and imagining myself in a black suit, on a racing bike, I slowly put my shades on for the cool effect and then mouth:" Hola Chica."* Snapping out of that, I think to myself, at least this time I'm the one nicknaming myself for a change not more bananadict crap.

I feel stuck at home,,,ah ha...handcuffed to my house..like there is nothing I can do..you know I wanna live life to the fullest coz this time might be my only chance but I can't seem find something interesting and worthwhile that I can endorse myself to. I feel like I have a lot of unfinished things I want to do yet I can't recall any one of them. As lay in bed to sleep on the first day of another week, while hugging my bolster girlfriend, Sasha, I realised life is short, every day, every hour, every second which has passed cannot be relived, so I figured I wanna find something worthwhile to do this holiday, I still don't know what it is but I hope it will come to me soon. Cause life is too short to be wasted.

Devil Ben on left shoulder : Oh lookie here, the philosophical dude

Angel Ben on right shoulder : You no longer exist, you crackpot, remember the new years resolution?

Ben : Shut up you two, I wanna sleep.

My New Year Resolution

Today, most of my friends have already gone to college. I feel a bit left out cause everyone is like taking the next step in their lives and meeting new friends and I'm stuck at home with my mutt who spent the day licking the carpet. At least my parents save on both college fees and dry cleaning. I figured to prevent myself from doing nothing and accomplishing null...I figured I make a list of my new years resolution and hopefully accomplish them.
Drum roll.....(u gotta stop doing that)

• Stop imagining that your life is a comedy and you are the main character
• Complete gym training and get a ripped body...yea rite
• Finish learning german
• Master the guitar
• Quit talking with a lot ahem innuendo
• Sleep earlier
• Concentrate on studies
• Stop watching scrubs cause it is taking over your life
• Never change my ambition again...its set : surgeon
• Never write a new years resolution again if I don't accomplish any of these
• Grow taller..come on hormones..just two more inches...will a group of hot cheerleaders help your progress?

(Spotlight shines on Ben as stand atop a mountain having accomplish all his goals)

Note to self: stop imagining things.

I really look forward to tomorrow morning..football...boombaby! I really need to go to bed soon though cause Ming Han is giving me pipe dreams that some cute girl wanna ask me out on a date...Really? Ah shut up and go to sleep....

One last resolution: Stop doing the angel Ben on right shoulder and devil Ben on left shoulder debate thing

My Last Day

A whole month of watching scrubs finally brought me to the end of 2007, I feel like I'm almost become J.D. though with my own spin on it. Somehow scrubs made me wanna go to med school even more though I know life is not as easy as it is in this comedy. I spent the last day of 2007 with my friends in Gurney, it was kinda fun though it was very hot. When I saw that performance outside, I just couldn't get the image of me suddenly running up and moonwalking past the singers out of my head. Though that would be smashing (and stupid). We also met a few friends and I tried as hard as I could to piss off those who were working. Actually I piss people off a bit too frequently, Ming Han and Chien Wei were called "newly-weds" the whole night cause they happened to be wearing matching clothes. When I met one of my old friend who changed a lot, it made me realised that people do change and the people she was mixing with was a bit shocking too but still inside, she was the same person I had known for so long. Thinner too! I was really glad I got to meet her though she seemed play hard to get..we had to look for her everywhere. I also saw a group of gothic people, jeeez when they walked past me i felt like there was some kind of eerie music playing in my head...too much scrubs. Finally, it was countdown and then 2008. The fireworks were quite nice. Of course, 12.15am was way past the time I was allowed to come out so I kinda rushed up the stairs. As I did so, I realised I have never ever made a new years resolution and my past few new years were quite unmemorable well more cause I don't remember them. Things have to change for 2008 and so I made up my mind, resolution is to complete my gym training. =) Come on.. give the man a break. And there it goes, my habit of having a monologue in my head and narrating my own life continues. Too much scrubs, dawg. And there it goes again...